Dealing with Rejection (without facing a restraining order)

Hi Jimbo,

I'm only 15 yet my heart has already been broken. There is this girl that I used to grow up with in my home town. She meant everything to me. I would do anything she asked. She is the only girl I ever really loved. Then, I moved. You see, I live in Calgary right now and she still lives pretty far away, and about two and a half months ago, I finally asked her out by e-mailing her. I know it's not the best way to ask someone out, but I didn't want to ask her any other way because of my fear of rejection. I mean, that is the only girl I have ever asked out in my life, and the only girl I think I ever will ask out. (If another true love doesn't come along)

She rejected me. She said she used to like me, but that was in grade 6 and that was 3 years ago. I write her about twice a week, telling her how much I love her, but she never once in her 20 letters she sent said she loved me back, and I want to know what I can say that will make her say "I love you too", even if it is just one time. I want to hear those precious words. I am going up to my home town this summer, (that is where my dad lives also) and I am going to see her. I don't know what I should do. I mean, that will be the first time we have seen each other since I asked her the question. Oh, and the day I asked her, was Valentine's Day to boot. Rejected on Valentine's Day.

And that exact day, I found out that my best friend had cancer and was in a hospital in Edmonton. That was the worst day of my life. Being rejected  by the most beautiful girl in the world (to me anyways) and finding out my best friend has cancer, all on Valentine's Day. I don't know what to do. Do you think you could help me... please?!

Lyle

Lyle,